Lately I've been doing a lot of "mental pausing". Pausing and enjoying the little things.
The things that I spent my childhood dreaming about.
I've been thoroughly enjoying this part of my life. Loving every moment with Lee. Smiling at people at the grocery store. Singing while washing the dishes. Having fun cleaning the house. Excitedly greeting Lee when he comes home from a long day of work. & Looking forward to our new little nightly movie and popcorn tradition.
I remember dreaming of the day that I would go grocery shopping for my own family. I remember thinking it would be so fun to have my own place. I remember dreaming about what it would be like to get to cook dinner for my family. And wash dishes..my own dishes. I remember dreaming about who I would marry and how it would feel to be married. I remember.
And now... I'm living it. I refuse to spend all of my waking time dreaming of what will come later, but instead, I will relish in what I have right now. in what we have.
In the joys of cleaning our dishes, picking up our house, cooking meals for us
I don't want to look back and see that all I did was dream about later. But I want to know that I lived.
For I am blessed right now, and to miss that is to miss out on life